I Am Being Selfish, This I Admit.

I thought about how selfish I would be. It’s hard to separate the two you know?-the difference between being selfish and just wanting? And then it hit me, they are not that much different. When you want something you will try your best to get it. You will ignore all the signs as to why you shouldn’t and you will. You will go to the limits and then push them if not a little a lot. It’s sad to say that I am feeling a bit selfish but I cannot help it it’s running through my veins. And it’s not an ice-cold rush but a warm comforting gradual flow through me. I’m despising that I have the feeling but loving the feel of it. Make sense? Not supposed to, this is about me! *laughs*




Anyway I just felt that I should say what I was feeling. This is my blog right? *laughs hard* I needed to get this off of my chest and I’m afraid I still haven’t gotten it all off. Once this blows over and it’s all said and done then I’ll be able to move on and look that the fact that I was a complete and utter fool. *smhl* Not at everything in my life…just this. What is "this" you may ask? Well if I tell you then you’d know and I’m too damn selfish to tell you!



Nikki

HA!

Shaking my head not really knowing what to say about what just went down. I don’t know if I’m seeing things or if they actually happened and my mind took a break. I think it did. I plan on taking a breath and laughing at myself because that is what you do when you don’t believe something. Right?


I’m sorry today is talking out of my mind day and I think I need to do just this. Perhaps this will get my head together? I’m highly doubting it but okay.

I think my sanity has taken a left turn into Neverland and did a detour to Wonderland. LOL… Don’t laugh it aint funny. (in my Smokey voice)

I think later on I’ll get a grip on reality. Maybe but as of right now I’m going to laugh about this. And it’s not a stupid laugh it’s just one of surprise.

I’ve got to go but I’ll be back later for more of “As my Brain Hurts” LMAO


Nikki

Tired...Aren't You?

I'm tired of people telling me what they would do if they were me. Or what they think I should do.
So sick of others stepping into my life telling me their opinion of which way I should go in my life. It really urks my nerves when people shake their head and say, "That would never happen to me". What the fuck? Who is asking you for any of this advice anyway? Please tell me this! Who is really coming up to  you and saying tell me what you think or give me an idea of what I should do.

The "advice friend" is so out-of-date that I get sick of it period. When I ask you for your opinion I'll probably be drunk off my ass and not really meaning to ask anyway. OR I could be just humoring you, letting you speak, not really giving two shits about how you would handle it.

I'm sorry, is this a little harsh? Guess what, I dont give a damn!

Toodles

~Nikki





Will be going to see this film "Sucker Punch" when it hits theaters this year! Love fantasy and action!