ASSHOLES

I'm sorry, I know I usually talk about the good in my life and the world but today I have to focus in on a few pieces of shit!

Now, I know that I've not been all squeaky clean at what I've dont in my life but I'll be the first one to say it. I can claim to my mistakes. I can be woman enough to own up to the shit and bull I've pulled my 30 years of living. What gets me are those that think they are right about every asinine thing they do.

Okay, for one, how in the hell do you expect a guy to respect you when you don't respect yourself? Yeah, yeah, yeah, I've been in this situation, but I learned to respect ME! And in doing this I dropped all ASSHOLES that tried their best to down me when they had the chance.

I have seen some stupid, stupid females sit here and wonder why they are being fucked, slapped and then tossed to the side. You want to know why? BECAUSE YOU ALLOW THEM TO!

You got guys that claim they are MEN! LMMFAO...Yeah, okay, men whip out that brain you carry in your backpocket and then maybe , just maybe we'll talk. Then on top of that you stick your dick everywhere but in the sun and then when a kid pops up you wanna start with, "I hear she been with so-and-so." Muthafucker you been with her too, so just cut the fucking bullshit, get like Trey, sopen your mouth and say ahhhhh! Then wham bam you're either the father or you're not. Stop claiming the kid one fucking moment then when you get mad you want to push the child off on some guy from the girls past. My daughter has a crew of brothers and sisters  but you dont see me crying and acting like a what? ASSHOLE! I moved the fuck on and I'm oh so damn happy. (Thanks Sweetie) *Muah*

If you're shaking your head saying I'm wrong FUCK YOU TOO! I know what I'm talking about and the hell I've been through!

There are females out here that think they can't do any better than they already are! Don't think this way. This is how the dipshits I was talking about in the previous excerpt find you and prey on you. Women have more strength mentally, and emotionally than men! Women are stronger in the mind but those that allow a few sweet words and a cute smile or a car lure them in and then be used for whatever they want!

I can honestly say that I fell a few times. I wouldn't listen to my parents because I thought I knew better. I thought I knew all I needed to know about being adult, but I didn't. I forgot the first rule to being an intelligent adult and that's RESPECTING THEM MY PARENTS. I did things that I later on confessed to my mom about and I could  have probably taken that shit to the grave but I am an adult, I can face my mom and talk about anything now. I talk to my mom just about everyday because she is my friend and I respect her opinion. She raised me. She took care of my kids when I couldn't. She gave me money when I needed it. She may have argued a bit but nonetheless she helped me and she still helps me. My parents continue to help me when I need it, even if I dont ask they help. But it starts there.

I still may slip and say the wrong thing or act out a little but I know it and I can be adult about my shit. Can you? Can any of the one's you know that claim they are?

I recently went through some shit and I didnt think I would ever bounce back but I did. I got my self together and did what I had to do for me and my girls. My girls are my life! I may have a guy but who knows how long he'll be in my life. Family is always there unless you act like an ASSHOLE and push them aside for OUTSIDE ASSHOLES that dont mean you any good! Yeah, there are good friends that got you when you're in a bind or when you need an ear to listen  to you but best friends come a dime a dozen. And when you overlook who care for you, you deserve to suffer in the way that you are suffering. You should be crying your eyes out and you should be confused as to why your life SUCKS! You made it that way. You decided to do what you wanted to do instead of what you should do and now you're looking like a what? AN ASSHOLE, not knowing how you're going to get by with the little that you have.

Okay, okay, I'm done now. LOL I've been happy going on two years now. I've met new people that have been positive staples in my life. I've even found old friends that brought have made my smile even brighter and I thank them from my heart. I thank God that I've lived this long to realize what path I'm supposed to be on. The one that he has planned. He's even allowed me to see what I can have if I continue to do right. And yes, he knows I'm not going to always do what he wants but he's given me the mind to know and correct myself. To see things through and try not to go that way again. It's all in who you are and if you want to be better or remain the same.

This is the end of my rant. I apologize for the rabid profanity. Not really, sometimes that's what it takes to make a person open their eyes?

-Nikki