Ever took the time to just wonder? You know, just think about all that you are and all that you have yet to become? Have you taken the time to actually see yourself? Not looking into a mirror at your reflection, but to SEE yourself? To see what kind of man or woman you have become? That when you look back you did what you thought was right in every detail of who you are. Every note written. Every word uttered. Every person kissed. Every minute that ticked away was part of what you are now? It’s only right that you look into yourself and find that core of you. To cut through all the bullshit and drama and realize you are who you are for a reson. Your purpose on this earth at this time is to do more than you are doing now.
I’ve become aggravated with who I am because I realize that who I am is not who I want to be. I want to tell family and friends when they are complete and just out right assholes of this world. I want to tell someone in a department store that “hell no, that is not a good look on you.” I want to sit down in front of someone and have no barriers in what I have to say. It becomes part of us to hold back how we feel and what we want. And in doing that we’re holding back part of us.
Life is about living and if you don’t live now you wont ever. There are no do-overs. No re-dos in this! You can't die and then come back and say “Oh, well I did that last time, let’s try it this way this time.” Yeah, no, that is not how it goes. So if you don’t do it now while you have it on your mind then STOP THINKING ABOUT IT! Let the thought go and go on about your life. Don’t regret not doing it, just move on!
Today, I am going to take my own advice. I’m going to move on. I’m not going to dwell on what ifs and shoulda coulda wouldas. It’s not going to benefit me any. Besides its better this way. I just felt that I needed to say that. I needed to put that out there into the universe and say my piece. Why not right? *laughs*
Love you all.
Nikki
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