You Will Never Understand

I love how I feel when I think of him.
That there's no one else in this world that can make me smile the way he can
My laugh is different because of him
How I feel about what I want has changed to include him
No, I'm not being silly nor am I being naive
I am voicing how I feel and who has made me finally feel this way
It's not wrong to express how you feel and how will they know if you don't
Texts from him tell  me how he's feeling
He's sad
He's angry
He's happy from a text that I sent
I can smile when my phone rings and his voice is on the other end
I can smile after I end a call because I'm content after talking to him
So, I can smile when I think of him
I can laugh all by myself thinking of something funny he said
Or I can curl up with my blanket, close my eyes and think of the last time he held me
It's not an obsession
Those that have never been happy would say that's what it is
I pity them
I pity them for not knowing how it feels to have a friend
To not have someone that knows you're down by how you word your text message
Or by the tone of your voice
They'll never know how it feels to care for someone
To worry when they worry
To help them work through hard times as well as laugh through the good
Many will never know
They will never know how it feels to have emotions that will build you instead of break you
But I will
I will know
And even if it doesn't last forever I will have known it
I will have felt it with the sensitivity in my touch
The heat that keeps me warm
A continuous 99.5 because he sparked something within me that pushed MY body temp a bit higher than the norm
Seen it with my two big brown eyes because they never miss a thing
Heard it in my heart because it beats to the same rhythm as his own

So, I thank you but honestly, for me to feel how I feel about him...
...YOUR APPROVAL IS NOT REQUIRED

Nikki Frierson, 2010